Wednesday, March 4, 2026
1865 Abraham Lincoln was inaugurated for his 2nd term as US President. The man who would assassinate him weeks later, John Wilkes Booth, was photographed attending the inauguration.
1911 Victor Berger (Wisc) became the 1st socialist congressman in the US
In bed at 9, up at 5:15. 28/43/27 DENSE FOG ADVISORY 118/60/60 106 207.6
Morning meds at 7:15 a.m.
I've started reading This is Happiness by Niall Williams. Geri recommended it to me. She had read it, having learned of it as a reading on Charles Colbert's National Book Club. It's a bildungsroman set in County Clare in the West of Ireland in the last century and reminds of another coming-of-age novel by Sean O'Faolain, Bird Alone, which I read and enjoyed. Both stories reminded me of myself growing up in the American version of the terrible Irish Catholic Church, O'Faolain's set in Cork on the south side of Ireland, and mine in Englewood on the south side of Chicago. Some early excerpts from Williams's book, from Chapter 3:
If it is true that each of us is born with a natural love of the world, then the actions of my childhood and schooling had been to vanquish it. I was too afraid of the world to love it.
I lived in a profound loneliness at the time.
Your father is a mystery it takes your whole life to unravel. . . I did not try to reach him until . . . the year he was dying. I’m older now than he was when he died and appreciate something of what it must have taken for him to stay living. It’s a thing you can’t quite grasp, I think, until you wake up an old man or woman and have to negotiate the way..
I sometimes think the worst thing a young person can feel is when you can find no answer to the question of what you are supposed to do with this life you’ve been given. . . I can now say that another version of that happens in old age, when it occurs to you that since you’ve lived this long, you must have learned something, so you open your eyes before dawn and think: What is it that I’ve learned, what is it I want to say?
Last year on this date, I wrote:
I'm grateful for candles. I blew out Kitty's Yahrzeit candle at 4:10 this morning but I have her in mind today, with thankfulness. A few years ago, when Kitty's insomnia seemed worse than usual, I sent her a red votive candle holder and a box of votive candles. I asked her to light a candle when she was up all alone in the middle of the night, sitting in their spare bedroom she called my bedroom, and let the candle remind you that your brother is with you. Later I bought a red holder for myself and my own box of candles and I would light my candle before daybreak when I was up alone, usually texting with her. I think of that as my "Kitty candle" and I always think of her when I see it or light it. Candles are big in Catholic culture, including the Irish Catholic culture in which we grew up. Catholic churches always had at least one wrought iron rack of votive lights in red holders somewhere in the church along with waxed wicks for lighting them and a depository for offerings. "I'll light a candle for you" was a way of saying I'll be praying for you. Lighting a candle was also a traditional way of praying for the 'dearly departed' or for praying for God's intercession in a time of danger or need. I suppose those little candles burning in the sanctified space of the church long after the offering churchgoer was gone was a way of symbolizing the continuation of the precatory prayer after the offeror had left the church.
Whatever the symbolism, I always liked those rows of votive lights in the church and liked to light them for whatever reason. When I was an altar boy in 6th, 7th, and 8th grade at St. Leo Grammar School one of my duties was to light the candles on the main altar before mass, one candle on each side of the tabernacle for a 'low mass,' 3 on either side for a 'high mass.' There is, or perhaps now I should say 'was', a large body of regulatory church law on the number of candles to be used for low masses, high masses, solemn high masses, pontifical masses, 40-hour devotions, benedictions, and eucharistic adorations. Those regulations are, or were, just a small part of the legalistic, spirit-killing, formalism that led and still leads so many people to reject traditional Catholicism. They are part and parcel with customs and regulations that have priests wearing chasubles, albs, cinctures, and stoles, that have bishops wearing silly-looking miters and carrying croziers or shepherd's crooks, and wearing very expensive, different colored vestments for different liturgical seasons. Many religionists eat that stuff up; others are repelled by it. But as it is often said, you can take the boy out of the Church, but you can't take the Church out of the boy. I still 'light a candle' for my dear sister.
I lit Kitty's yahrzeit candle first thing yesterday morning and blew it out when I went to bed, eschewing the Jewish custom of letting the candle burn from sundown to sundown. She lives on in my heart, as she does in the hearts of her children, other family members, and many, many friends, though my heart has a deep hole in it since she died.
Another felicitous excerpt from This is Happiness: p. 45-46
Time has unpeeled a history of infamy for the country's institution, and failures of compassion, tolerance, and what was once called common decency were not hard to come upon. Faha was no different; cruelty, meanness, and ignorance all had a place then, but as I've grown older, the instances and stories of them seem less compelling, as if God has inbuilt in me a spirit of clemency I wasn't aware of when younger. It may be, of course, that I'm just grateful to be above ground, and what seems more significant to note is human goodness. I'm at an age now when, in the early mornings, I'm often revisited by all my own mistakes, stupidities, and unintended cruelties. They sit around the edge of the bed and look at me and say nothing. But I see them well enough.
John McGregor, our good next-door neighbor, is dying and enrolled in a home hospice program. He has been a wonderful neighbor, recently diagnosed with leukemia, but Debbie tells me that it's not the leukemia that has him close to death, but rather the medication he's been on. Geri taped a note to their front door this morning, offering help 24/7, and got a call from Debbie thanking her.






