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August 30, 2022

In bed at 10, awake at 4, 4 pss, no vino.  Day 10? of nighttime back pain, waking with back pain.  Lily was asleep in the tv room, let her out at 4:15.  Woke up thinking about the finale of Season 1 of The Morning Show and the rarely sung lyrics of the Anglican hymn All Creatures Great and Small: 'the rich man in his castle, the poor man at his gate, He made them high or lowly, and ordered their estate.'  That idea of the "He" again, the all-powerful, all-knowing, all-loving Creator, making some of us rich, some poor.

    Took a trip this morning to Sendik's to pick up some all-purpose flour Geri needed to make her pie crust for tonight's peach pie and a 6 pack of Beck's NA for Tom and Caela's dinner visit.  Then went up to Meijer's to pick up some CBH, Lilly's toppings, Geri's distilled water, a cereal bowl to replace the one I broke yesterday, some orange pop, and a small bottle of Maker's Mark for the next time Geri wants a manhattan.

    Felt a little unsteady as I walked from the car into Sendik's, causing me to wonder whether the day is at hand or approaching when I'll be keeping Judy, my first Rollator, in the back of the Volvo.  All downhill from here.  Vision, hearing, memory, and executive function are all declining.

    Did some work on my knockoff Calder, removed the painter's tape only to see that the red paint (probably the glaze) seeped under the tape onto the white border and the cad yellow adjacent.  Not sure I can salvage anything from this experiment/exercise.  May need to sleep on it for a couple of days.

    Geri was stung on the hand by a bee when she went to the local farmer's market to pick up sweet corn for tonight.  I'm not sure but I think I may never have been stung by a bee or wasp or hornet, not that I can recall.  Geri literally seems to attract bee stings.  Hard to figure.  The reaction to today's sting doesn't seem too bad, unlike some former stings.

    Thinking more about the storyline in The Morning Show, about how my mother experienced the shabby predation in her waitress work, how my sister experienced it working at a supermarket, how Geri experienced it in an early workplace - how all women, especially attractive women, experience it.  Too easy to dismiss men 'hitting on' women in workplaces as 'boys will be boys', and all you have to do is say 'no,', etc.  Too easy to refuse to accept the reality of 'male privilege,' especially white male privilege.    The evidence is all around us, much of it hidden by vulnerable victims stuck between treacherous rocks and very hard places.