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Thursday, July 25, 2024

7/25/24

Thursday, July 25, 2025

306 Constantine I is proclaimed Roman Emperor by his troops

1941 FDR banned selling benzine/gasoline to Japan

1968 Pope Paul VI published the encyclical "Humanae vitae (Of Human Life)" which rejects any artificial forms of birth control

2019 US Justice Department announced the resumption of the use of the death penalty, scheduling five executions

In bed at about 10:30, awake with hip pain at 3:15. I sat on the edge of the bed for 5 minutes or so to let the pain subside enough to move to LZB to read some Spoon River, moved with my walker to the TV room recliner at 3:45, where Lilly slept until I knocked over my water bottle and woke her up & she moved to the living room.  I was hungry before I went to bed last night and I am hungry this morning, wondering what I can eat without causing a spike in my blood glucose that will give me a high baseline all day.  Man cannot live on cottage cheese, plain yogurt, and assorted berries alone but at 5:30, I had my breakfast of cottage cheese and blueberries because I could stand on my feet long enough to deal with making CBH and eggs. . . Looking out the kitchen window as I added the blueberries to my cottage cheese, I saw in silhouette two whitetail does lying down on our lawn, under the berry tries along County Line Road.  A beautiful peaceful sight.

Prednisone, day 74, 15+5, day 10. I took my 15 mg. of prednisone at 4:55 a.m.   It was disappointing that I didn't hear from either the PM&R Clinic or Dr. Cheng yesterday.  If I haven't heard from either by 10 a.m. or so this morning, I will call. I have very noticeable bi-tonal tinnitus this morning, a high-pitched hissing sound, and a low-pitched hum.  I turned on YouTube for some "brown noise" hopefully to get some masking.     

At 8:30, Dr. Cheng called and asked a series of questions and then informed me that my hip pain may be either bursitis or pain from the hip bones themselves.  If the latter, only Dr. England, who injected my right hip back in 2021, does the ultrasound-guided cortisone injections.  If it's the bursa, Dr. Cheng could examine me and inject me tomorrow.  I opted to see Dr. England and will await his call, hoping he can see me without too much delay.

Waking thoughts of Netanyahu.  As I sat on the bed and in the LZB, I thought of Netanyahu and his speech in Congress yesterday.  Despite my knee-jerk dislike of him, especially after his speech to our Congress in March 2015 opposing Obama's nuclear treaty with Iran, I wondered whether he may be correct, or at least reasonable, in his long-term opposition to a two-state solution and his so far successful efforts to undermine all efforts to attempt such a policy by supporting settlements in the West Bank and earlier in Gaza.  I'm mindful (at least on occasion, of Oliver Cromwell's famous exhortation to the General Assembly of the Church of Scotland in 1650:  "I beseech you, in the bowels of Christ, think it possible that you may be mistaken."  Cromwell's Rule in probability theory is to always leave some room for the possibility of error.  How would I feel if I were an Israeli Jew, having lived through the 1946-48 'War of Independence,' the 1967 Six Day War, the 1973 Yom Kippur War, the Hezbollah wars in Lebanon, the rocket attacks from Gaza, the intifadas, the Achille Lauro, the Munich Olympics, the bus bombings, and on and on?  It's easy to sit in my recliner in Bayside and judge Netanyahu, his Likud allies, and the increasingly conservative Israeli public when neither I nor any members of my family are at any significant risk of death or injury from Hamas, Hezbollah, an Iraqui or Syrian militiamen, or cruise and ballistic missiles from Iran, or now even drones from Yemen.  Netanyahu has never been a "chicken hawk," like all the yuppies in the George W. Bush administration who avoided military service in Vietnam but were neocons in supporting military adventures carried out by others.  Netanyahu served ably in a Special Forces unit in the IDF and sustained combat injuries.  His brother Yonathan, also an IDF Special Forces officer and commander, was killed in the 1976 raid on Entebbe, Uganda.   Benjamin and his family have shed blood in defense of Israel and its people.  I don't know where to go with these thoughts because they lead me back to the fundamental question of the wisdom and legitimacy of Israel itself as 'the Jewish homeland' on territory that had been overwhelmingly Arab before colonization or settlement by mostly European Jews, by people like Netanyahu's father, who moved to Tel Aviv in 2020 as an ardent Zionist.  The idea of Zionism has "baked into it' if not the expulsion of the indigenous Arabs in Palestine, at least their subordination to Jewish hegemony.  In his speech yesterday, Netanyahu conflated the State of Israel with Jewry but we know that not every Jew is a Zionist, much less a supporter of the modern government of Israel.  There were Jews on the streets outside the Capitol demonstrating against Zionism as he spoke.  Theodor Herzl's touting of Zionism was opposed by most assimilated Jews in Germany at the time, and perhaps even by Jews in the shtetls to the East.  The fear was that if Jews were seen to have a homeland in Palestine, they could be seen as not belonging where they were, in Europe.  And Zionism raises the perplexing problem of who is a Jew and whether there is a Jewish nation.  Yeshayahu Leibowitz argues that the only halakha that ties Jews together is the observance of Jewish law, the written law and the oral law. What does a Jew living in Singapore have in common with a Jew living in Los Angeles and a Jew living in Morocco or Ethiopia?  Not language geographical ties race or allegiance to a nation-state or customs other than halakha.  Where do secular Jews, like Netanyahu and his birth family,  fit into this taxonomy?  How about Reform Jews?  Atheist Jews?  Leibowitz wrote: "The Jewish people, as it existed in history, is definable only by reference to its Judaism - a Judaism that was not a mere idea in the mind but the realization of a program of living outlined in the Torah and delineated by its Mitzvoth.  This way of life constituted the specific national content of Jewishness or, in other words, the uniqueness of the Jewish people.  The Jew practiced a way of living that was exclusively his."  Unique dietary behavior, unique marital laws, unique butchering behavior, unique Sabbath behavior, etc.  The point is that it is the uniqueness of behavior, practice, or way of living that defines Jewishness, and that way of living is provided in halakha, Jewish law.  Where do all these thoughts take me in terms of Netanyahu and yesterday's speech?  in terms of Zionism? and in terms of the military and settler occupation of the West Bank? the war in Gaza?  Always back to the question of the defensibility of Zionism itself.  What do I make of this muddle of thoughts?  That I am not a Zionist.  That Zionism is understandable but not defensible.  That Zionism, long term, has not been good for the Jews and indeed is a leading cause of antisemitism around the world, for which diaspora Jews pay the heaviest price.  That Zionism is just another form of pernicious nationism very much akin to the White Christian Nationalism that plagues America.

Harry Wilmans

I was just turned twenty-one,
And Henry Phipps, the Sunday-school superintendent,
Made a speech in Bindle’s Opera House.
“The honor of the flag must be upheld,” he said,
“Whether it be assailed by a barbarous tribe of Tagalogs
Or the greatest power in Europe.”
And we cheered and cheered the speech and the flag he waved
As he spoke.
And I went to the war in spite of my father,
And followed the flag till I saw it raised
By our camp in a rice field near Manila,
And all of us cheered and cheered it.
But there were flies and poisonous things;
And there was the deadly water,
And the cruel heat,
And the sickening, putrid food;
And the smell of the trench just back of the tents
Where the soldiers went to empty themselves;
And there were the whores who followed us, full of syphilis;
And beastly acts between ourselves or alone,
With bullying, hatred, degradation among us,
And days of loathing and nights of fear
To the hour of the charge through the steaming swamp,
Following the flag,
Till I fell with a scream, shot through the guts.
Now there’s a flag over me in
Spoon River. A flag!
A flag!

Henry Phipps

I was the Sunday-school superintendent,
The dummy president of the wagon works
And the canning factory,
Acting for Thomas Rhodes and the banking clique;
My son the cashier of the bank,
Wedded to Rhodes’ daughter,
My week days spent in making money,
My Sundays at church and in prayer.
In everything a cog in the wheel of things-as-they-are:
Of money, master and man, made white
With the paint of the Christian creed.
And then:
The bank collapsed.
I stood and hooked at the wrecked machine—
The wheels with blow-holes stopped with putty and painted;
The rotten bolts, the broken rods;
And only the hopper for souls fit to be used again
In a new devourer of life,
When newspapers, judges and money-magicians
Build over again.
I was stripped to the bone, but I lay in the Rock of Ages,
Seeing now through the game, no longer a dupe,
And knowing “the upright shall dwell in the land
But the years of the wicked shall be shortened.”
Then suddenly, Dr. Meyers discovered
A cancer in my liver.
I was not, after all, the particular care of God
Why, even thus standing on a peak
Above the mists through which I had climbed,
And ready for larger life in the world,
Eternal forces
Moved me on with a push.

Anniversaries thoughts.  First, Constantive's accession to the emperor's position in 306 A.D. and his desire to unify the Roman Empire led eventually to his supposed "conversion" to Christianity and the development of Christendom.  His desire for unity in religion led to his convening of the First Council of Nicaea in 325 and the Nicene Creed.

Second, FDR's banning of the sale of gas to the Japanese on this date in 1941 was only one of the last acts of economic warfare that the U.S. waged on Japan before Japan attacked the U.S. at Pearl Harbor on December 7th of that year.  In 1939 the United States terminated the 1911 commercial treaty with Japan. “On July 2, 1940, Roosevelt signed the Export Control Act, authorizing the President to license or prohibit the export of essential defense materials.” Under this authority, “[o]n July 31, exports of aviation motor fuels and lubricants and No. 1 heavy melting iron and steel scrap were restricted.” Next, in a move aimed at Japan, Roosevelt slapped an embargo, effective October 16, “on all exports of scrap iron and steel to destinations other than Britain and the nations of the Western Hemisphere.” Finally, on July 26, 1941, Roosevelt “froze Japanese assets in the United States, thus bringing commercial relations between the nations to an effective end. One week later Roosevelt embargoed the export of such grades of oil as still were in commercial flow to Japan.”  As children, we were all taught that the "Japs" attacked Pearl Harbor completely unprovoked. Wrong.

Third, Humanae Vitae!  Another terrible event in 1968.  From my memoir:

The Catholic Church also revealed its feet of clay during 1968.  Cardinal Spellman was spouting his murderous nonsense about ‘a war for civilization’  without restraint by the Vatican and Catholics were generally as resistant as any other group to much of the civil rights demands.  The big difference maker in terms of authority however had nothing to do with war and peace or civil rights, but with sex, Paul VI’s encyclical banning contraception, including birth control pills.  In 1963, John XXIII had established a commission to study population and birth control issues.  Paul VI appointed 15 cardinals and bishops and 64 lay experts to the commission.  The commission provided a report in 1966 saying contraception was not intrinsically evil.  The vote among the clergy was 9 to 6; the lay commission vote was 60 to 4.  One of the dissenters was Karol Wojtyla, later John Paul II.  The dissenters feared that a change in the Church’s position would call into question the pope’s teaching authority .  The report was leaked to the press in 1967 and there was a very favorable reaction among modern Catholics, who expected the pope to adopt the commission’s recommendation.  Instead, Paul VI rejected the recommendation and adopted the dissenting position, undoubtedly fearing that any change in the Church’s position would weaken the claim to papal authority.  What happened, of course, was precisely what Paul and the Vatican conservatives wanted to avoid: widespread rejection of the Church’s teaching authority, especially by American and Western European Catholics. The pope and his conservative curial apparatchiks were seen as, at best. mired in medievalism, and, at worst, more concerned about the power of its shepherds than in the welfare of the flock.

Lastly, Donald Trump finally got his wish to have governments empowered to kill miscreants in cold blood.  I'm recalling his full-page ad in the New York Times calling for the restoration of the death penalty in connection with the wrongfully convicted Central Park 5. 


    


  


Wednesday, July 24, 2024

7/24/24


Wednesday, July 24, 2024

1943  RAF began bombing Hamburg (till creating a firestorm and killing 42,600 people

1952 "High Noon", starring Gary Cooper and Thomas Mitchell, was released

1967 First modern hospice founded  in London, beginning modern palliative care.

2019  Robert Mueller reported that President Trump was not exonerated of obstruction of justice and that Russia interfered in the US election to benefit Trump

In bed at 8:45 p.m.,, awake at 3:20, and up at 3:37 a.m. with pain in right hip and mid-back.  Lilly showed up to be let out at 5:05.  I nodded off at some point and woke up at 7:30 a.m.    

Prednisone, day 73, 15+5, day 9.  I took my 15 mg. at 5:15 with a few saltines, followed at 5:5 with 1,000 mg. of Tylenol.   

Osteoarthritis and osteophytosis.   How bad is it?  Yesterday, I had real difficulty mounting the one step up from our front sidewalk to the stoop leading to the front door.  I almost fell down again.  I suspect that getting up the basement stairs would be impossible and getting up the two steps from the garage to the kitchen is not a sure bet.

Netanyahu honored in US Congress.  What does it say about our government that Congress will entertain and honor Netanyahu, a man with so much blood on his hands and indicted both for war crimes by the International Criminal Court and for crimes in his own country, with an address to a joint session today?

 I note that this is occurring only with the concurrence of Jewish Democratic Senate Leader Chuck Schumer, Wall Street's senator.  Schumer not only defends the State of Israel but also defends the oppression of the Palestinian people especially in Gaza.  In a speech in June 2010, he urged Israel to "strangle them economically until they see that's not the way to go."  In March 2018, he told AIPAC's delegates that Israeli settlements in the Israeli-occupied West Bank, including East Jerusalem, have nothing to do with the Israeli–Palestinian conflict.  Schumer is a co-sponsor of a Senate resolution expressing objection to the UN Security Council Resolution 2334, which condemned Israeli settlement-building in the occupied Palestinian territories as a violation of international law. He criticized Obama, saying: "Past administrations—both Democrat and Republican—have protected Israel from the vagaries of this biased institution [the U.N.]. Unfortunately, by abstaining on United Nations Resolution 2334, this administration has not followed in that path."  In May 2017, Schumer co-sponsored the Israel Anti-Boycott Act, Senate Bill 720, which made it a federal crime, punishable by a maximum sentence of 20 years imprisonment, for Americans to encourage or participate in boycotts against Israel and Israeli settlements in the occupied Palestinian territories if protesting actions by the Israeli government. The bill would make it legal for U.S. states to refuse to do business with contractors that engage in boycotts against Israel.

Schuer's Democratic Senate colleague and fellow Jew Bernie Sanders gave a speech on the Senate floor yesterday deploring Netanyahu's presence at today's joint session.  Among other things, he pointed out that Netanyahu is a credibly-accused war criminal, noting:

* The ICC prosecutor has accused Netanyahu of "depriving civilians of objects indispensable for their survival including wilfully impeding relief supplies as provided for under the Geneva Convention.

* the use of heavy weapons in densely populated civilian areas constitutes an intentional and direct attack on the civilian population particularly affecting women and children.

* Since the Gaza war started, at least 39,000 Palestinians have been killed and another 90,000 injured, 60% of whom are women, children, and elderly people.

* most people believe that the death toll is much higher because thousands of Palestinians remain buried under tons of rubble, their corpses not yet recovered.

* some 1.9 million people out of a population of 2.2 million have been driven from their homes, 90% of the population.

* more than 60% of Gaza's housing has been damaged or destroyed, including 221,000 housing units completely destroyed.

* more than 1,000,000 Gazans are living in tents.

* infrastructure has been destroyed; water sewer and electric power systems have been made inoperable.

* Gaza had 12 universities; every one of those universities has been bombed; 88% of all school buildings have been damaged, i.e., under Netanyahu's leadership, the entire educational system in Gaza has been annihilated.  520 people have been killed while sheltering in UN schools.

* 21 of Gaza's 36 hospitals are completely out of service and the remainder can only partially function, with 90,000 Gazans suffering from war-related injuries.  The WHO has recorded more than 1,000 attacks on healthcare facilities since October 7th.

* Disease is spreading as a result of lack of clean water, sanitation, and health care: hepatitis, dysentery, and even polio.

* As a result of the restrictions on humanitarian aid, people in Gaza are now starving to death.  Reliable estimates are that about 490,000 Gazans are now starving. More than 50,000 children require treatment for acute malnutrition and are at risk of starving to death.

* According to both the UN and every humanitarian agency attempting to provide aid to the Gazans, Israel has intentionally impeded the provision of food, water, and medical supplies to those civilians.

* IDF and settlers have killed more than 500 Palestinians in the occupied West Bank since October 7th, including 131 children.

* Seven major trade unions here in the U.S., including the American Postal Workers, the Association of Flight Attendants, the Union of Painters, the National Education Association, the Service Employees International Ass'n., the United Auto Workers, and the United Electrical Workers, representing some 7 million workers, sent a letter to President Biden calling on the U.S. to immediately halt all military aid to Israel.

Dayenu.

Debbie Wasserman Schultz on CNN this morning said that she will certainly attend the speech and "will proudly serve on the Escort Committee."  Another reason for me to dislike her, on top of her stunts against Bernie Sanders in the 2016 Democratic primaries in which he ran against Schulz's favorite, Hilary Clinton.. . . .

I watched and listened to Netanyahu's entire speech.  I cringed as he described how very, very careful his government, the IDF, and the Israeli people were to get food to the civilians in Gaza, to avoid civilian casualties, and otherwise to act nobly in the defense of Israel from Hamas.  I noticed what a powerful orator he was and how he used large print notes on paper rather than teleprompters, how he revealed his close ties to America with his MIT degree, and his references to December 7th, 1941, and September 11, 2001, and his invocation of FDR's phrase "a day that will live in infamy".  I noted his identification of Israel's interests with American interests and vice versa.  Mostly I cringed to see so many American lawmakers (1) present in the room to listen to his propaganda and (2) fulsomely cheering him, while outside the Capitol thousands protested his presence.  I condemn Netanyahu and his right-wing allies and I condemn Joe Biden for arming him with the weapons he uses to kill and wound infants, toddlers, children, their mothers, and grandparents.  I watch Netanyahu in his expensive navy blue power suit and royal blue necktie,  with the patriotic lapel pins, and think of the children having limbs amputated without anesthetics, lying on the dirty floors of Gazan hospitals lacking antibiotic and analgesic medications.  I think of the crowds of starving people chasing food trucks, or holding out plates begging for food at distribution locales, and I think of the old line "Who are you going to believe, me or your lying eyes?"  I also think of Netahyahu's alliance with and allegiance to Donald Trump, and what that tells us.  Meanwhile, the Republican senators and representatives are on their feet cheering and chanting 'USA, USA, USA!!!"  Pass me the basin, please.

Anniversaries thoughts.  First, the Hamburg bombing and its firestorm killing thousands reminded me of a memo written by Winston Churchill on March 28, 1945, shortly before the end of the European war.  He wrote: "It seems to me that the moment has come when the question of bombing German cities simply for the sake of increasing the terror, though under other pretexts, should be reviewed.  Otherwise we shall come into control of an utterly ruined land.  We shall not, for instance, be able to get housing materials out of Germany for our own needs because some temporary provision would have to be made for the Germans themselves.  The destruction of Dresden remains a serious query against the conduct of Allied bombing.  The Foreign Secretary has spoken to me on this subject, and I feel the need for more precise concentration upon military objectives, such as oil and communications behind the immediate battle-zone, rather than on mere acts of terror and wanton destruction, however impressive."  I included a photocopy of the memo in my memoir in the chapter in which I described my visit to Hiroshima and its War Memorial.  I wrote:

I found this letter from Winston Churchill while doing some research on strategic bombing.  It is notable for its bald acknowledgment that a prime purpose of strategic bombing of cities was “increasing the terror, though under other pretexts” and for its reluctant abjuring of “mere acts of terror and wanton destruction, however impressive.”  The German military of course were past masters of Schrecklichkeit or terrorism at least from the inception of World War I and its invasion of Belgium, the bombardment of historic Louvain and torching of its priceless university library.  However, it did not take long for the British and Americans to get into their own brand of in terrorem tactics on civilians, especially the firebombing of cities in Europe and Japan, including the precious medieval city of Dresden which Churchill mentions as a “query against the conduct of Allied bombing.”  The bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki represented the pinnacle of terror bombing.  

 Second, High Noon, one of the world's greatest movies?

Third, the hospice anniversary reminds me of Kitty's long suffering.

Fourth, Mueller's testimony before the Senate Judiciary Committee, lest we forget.

Tuesday, July 23, 2024

7/23/24

 Tuesday, July 23, 2024


1599 Caravaggio gets his first public commission, the Contarelli Chapel in the church of San Luigi dei Francesi, Rome

1973 US President Richard Nixon refuses to release Watergate tapes of conversations in the White House relevant to the Watergate investigation

2020 US President Trump says he could send 75,000 federal agents to deal with violence in American cities like Portland, drawing backlash


In bed around 9:15 p.m., awake around 2 a.m. with bad hip/thigh pain, and up and on the TV room recliner by 2:25 after sitting on the side of the mattress waiting for the pain to subside.  No sign of Lilly.  At 4:15, I put some steel-cut oatmeal on the stove, but only with difficulty from standing with pain.  I set my timer for 10 minutes so I could sit down between checking on the simmer.  I let Lilly out at 4:45 and sat down to eat the oatmeal & berries at 4:50.


Prednisone, day 72, 15+5, day 8. I took 500 mg. of Tylenol at 9 last night and took another 1,000 mg. at 4:30  this morning.  I took the 15 mg. of prednisone at 5:00 with my oatmeal.  I took another 1,000 mg. of Tylenol at 12:20, with hip aching even while seated.  I received a t/c from Nurse Mary in Dr. Chatt's office advising that she will put in a consult to PM&R for a cortisone shot in the hip.*  As of 4 p.m., no response from Dr. Ryzka in Rheumatology.


The Hours.   I saw this 2002 film many years ago, but all I remembered of it was the suicides of Virginia Woolf and the Ed Harris character.  The film features a superb cast of Nicole Kidman as Virginia Woolf in 1923 Britain, Julianne Moore as Laura Brown in 1951 Los Angeles, and Meryl Streep as Clarissa Vaughn in 2001 New York City.  Ed Harris stars as Clarissa's former lover, the poet and novelist Richard, who is dying of AIDs, and Claire Danes as her daughter Sophia.  The film is one of the strangest I've seen, all about suicides, the will and impetuses to die at one's own hand.  Virginia Woolf did it by drowning herself, Richard Vaughn by falling out of a high window, and Laura Brown came close by contemplating overdosing on medications.  All three characters are bi-sexual and depressed, though Woolf is in a period of mental clarity between bouts of whatever schizophrenic madness beset her.  The main characters are all connected by Woolf's novel Mrs. Dalloway, about a well-to-do, privileged British woman preparing for a party she is hosting while realizing that despite her wealth and privileges, she is all alone in her world.

"The Hours" title is a reference to Virginia Woolf's original title for Mrs. Dalloway, and Richard refers to it while sitting on the window ledge talking to Clarissa Vaughn about life "It's the hours, the hours after the party, and the hours after that."  He also quotes the line from Mrs. Dalloway, "Mrs Dalloway is always giving parties to cover the silence.”  


 Nicole Kidman's performance as Virginia Woolfe earned an Oscar but I was most impressed by Julianne Moore's portrayal of the depressed, pregnant Laura Brown hating her life in suburban Los Angeles with her self-satisfied, loving husband and son (who turned out to be Clarissa Vaughn's Richard).  We learn that Laura abandoned her family and fled to Canada when her second child was born.  Virginia, Laura, and Clarissa all share a sense of desperation, meaning, belonging,  and purposefulness but it is portrayed most persuasively by Julianne Moore.  They also share a bisexuality, suggested by Laura's kiss of her friend Kitty, who has just disclosed her uterine cancer but fully developed by Clarissa's relationship with Richard who is also bisexual and her lesbian relationship with her lover Sally Lester, played by Allison Janney.

It is a depressing movie, reminding me in that respect of Paris, Texas, Midnight Cowboy, Apocalypse Now, The Deer Hunter, Full Metal Jacket, A Clockwork Orange,  and Calvinist Paul Schrader films like Taxi Driver (screenwriter) and First Reformed and Master Gardener.  From Mrs. Dalloway:

“Did it matter then, she asked herself, walking towards Bond Street, did it matter that she must inevitably cease completely? All this must go on without her; did she resent it; or did it not become consoling to believe that death ended absolutely?”

“One cannot bring children into a world like this. One cannot perpetuate suffering, or increase the breed of these lustful animals, who have no lasting emotions, but only whims and vanities, eddying them now this way, now that.”

I've had similar thoughts.



In the Dark podcast, season 3; the Marines and Haditha.  I have started to follow this New Yorker podcast about the murder of 24 Iraqi civilians by U. S. Marines in the western Iraqi city of Haditha in November 2005.  Only the first two of nine total episodes are available now.  From what I have listened to so far, the investigative series paints an ugly picture of a coverup of the mass murder of civilians by Marines.  It also illustrates the extraordinary difficulty of obtaining access to governmental "public" records under the Freedom of Information Act, providing more evidence of why we should always be deeply skeptical about what any government, including our own, tells us, about itself and the actions of its functionaries.







Anniversaries thoughts.  First, I mention the Caravaggio anniversary not because of the work in San Luigi dei Francesi but because it reminds me of my week in Rome with Mike Hogan and Mike leading me to the church of Santa Maria del Populo on the Piazza del Populo.  Mike wanted to see again Caravaggio's Conversion of St. Paul on the Way to Damascus.  He had seen it when he visited Rome as a kid with his parents, his father being an Army officer stationed in Europe at the time.  The church is also home to Caravaggio's stunning Crucifixion of St. Peter.  The painting of St. Paul is (in)famous for the space and attention devoted to Paul's horse, especially the horse's rump, compared to that afforded to Saint Pual lying on the ground, at the bottom of the painting,.

Second, it's the 49th anniversary of Richard Nixon's refusal to produce his Oval Office tapes to the Watergate prosecutor.  If the issue had been before the current Roberts; court, there is every reason to believe Nixon would have gotten away with it and would have received a sweeping immunity in terms of his Watergate crimes, maybe even a pat on the back.

Third, from the BBC, hints of things to come if Trump wins in November:

President Donald Trump is to send "a surge" of federal security forces to US cities in a crackdown on crime.  Chicago and two other Democratic-run cities are being targeted in the Republican president's move, amid a spike in violence.  But federal deployments in Portland, Oregon, amid ongoing unrest have been controversial. The city's mayor was among those tear-gassed at a protest.
Law and order has become a key plank of Mr Trump's re-election bid in November. 
 
Since the death on 25 May of an unarmed black man, George Floyd, in police custody in Minneapolis, Minnesota, there have been protests - sometimes descending into civil disorder - in scores of US cities.  In Portland, which has seen more than 50 days of demonstrations, Mayor Ted Wheeler was tear-gassed by federal agents while attending the city's protest on Wednesday night.  Speaking to a New York Times reporter, the Democrat said the tear-gassing was "an egregious overreaction" by federal officers, and that he had seen "nothing that provoked this response".  "This is not a de-escalation strategy, this is flat-out urban warfare," Mr Wheeler said. Other local officials have similarly criticised the president's tactics, saying he has escalated tensions in the city.

Meanwhile, gun violence has spiked in metropolitan areas including New York City, Philadelphia, Los Angeles, Chicago and Milwaukee. 

Land of the free, home of the brave, sea to shining sea and all that. 



* Response from Dr. Chatt:

Hello Mr. Clausen,

Dr. Chatt responded to the information you provided about your ongoing hip pain. This is her response:

"Initially, when the pt went to the ER, he was having pain in multiple joints

including his R hip, which could definitely be due to his PMR and increasing his

Prednisone dose as recommended by Rheumatology would help.

However, if he is now having more localized right hip pain, which continues even

after increasing his Prednisone dose, then this is more suggestive of worsening

pain due to OA of the Right hip. I reviewed his R hip x-ray that was done in the

ER on 7/14/2024, which indicated the following:

No acute fracture, dislocation, or significant bony abnormality.

Moderate degenerative changes of the right hip including space

narrowing and osteophytosis. Right-sided neurostimulator.

At this point, I would recommend getting a Right hip injection either from

Rheumatology or if they don't provide this service, then I can place a consult

for him to see PM&R for this. "

So your next step would be to discuss with Rhuematology if they can provide the injection for your right hip. If they cannot, let us know and Dr. Chatt can place the consult for PM&R.

Sincerely,

Mary Beth RN

Primary Care, Gold Clinic


 


Monday, July 22, 2024

1/22/24

 Monday, July 22, 2024

1946 Militant Zionist organization Irgun bombed the British headquarters for Palestine in the King David Hotel in Jerusalem, killing 91 people and injuring 46

1991 Jeffrey Dahmer confessed to killing 17 men in 1978

In bed before 11 after watching more of Olivier's Hamlet and all the news of Biden and Harris. awake at 4:45, up q5 5;00 with painful hip and lower back. Very painful to walk from bedroom to TV room.   . . . In the afternoon, I am experiencing throbbing pain, even sitting on the recliner.  

Prednisone, day 71, 15+5, day 7.   I took 15 mg. of prednisone at 5:15 a.m., had breakfast of cottage cheese & raspberries at 5:30. and took 1,000 mg. of Tylenol at 5:50.

I'm grateful that Joe Biden dropped out.  I had no emotional response when I saw the news on TV,  none.  No excitement, no sadness, nothing.  I'm worn out by this election cycle, by all that has happened to Trump this week, and by all the waiting for Biden.  I'm pleased that Biden is out of the race though I realize he will continue to occupy the Oval Office and to exercise the powers of the presidency during Kamala Harris's campaign.  Will he choose to or be able to lie low during the campaign or will this be a  "never underestimate Joe's ability to fuck things up" situation?  The latest reporting on his decision to bow out makes it clear that Biden lacks self-awareness of his condition and on its effects on the voting public. Or will there be occasion to do something helpful to her election?  Will the Republicans try legal maneuvers in a Trump-appointed court, as with mifepristone?  I suspect we can count on it.  Mika Brznski on Morning Joe reported this morning that the Republicans have already started "the hate campaign" against  Kamala Harris.  We are in for a hellish time between now, election day, and what follows.  God help us, but we know he won't.

The Apotheosis of Joe Biden.  It was, I suppose, inevitable that the anger that so many people were feeling toward Joe Biden because of his refusal to withdraw from the presidential race after the debate would change into effusive praise of him once he did so.  So it has been.  He is being lauded as a selfless patriot and a hero, almost a saint.  I know it seems chintzy of me, but I can't join in.  I continue to see him as a gladhanding, backslapping politician of modest natural talent with an immodest lust for power, place, and prestige.  He ran a ludicrous failed campaign for the presidency in 1988.  He explored running for president again in 2000 and 2004 and did announce in 2008 but blew up his campaign in 2008 with a bone-headed comment about Barack Obama (" "I mean, you got the first sort of mainstream African-American who is articulate and bright and clean and a nice-looking guy") that also backhandedly insulted Jesse Jackson, Shirley Chisholm, Carol Mosely Braun, and Al Sharpton.  He dropped out shortly after receiving only a handful of votes in the Iowa caucuses.  He has long been either a liar or a bullshitter, especially when it comes to stories that enhance his stature.  He simply makes things up when it suits his purposes.  In this trait, he is not unlike Donald J. Trump, just not as flagrant or as frequent an offender.  I think the most telling of his comments after his disastrous debate on June 27th was his response to NBC's Lester Holt's question about whether he had watched a video of the debate afterward.  He said, "I don't think I did, no."  First, that response seems patently disingenuous. Second, if he did watch it and said he didn't, what does that tell us?  If he didn't watch the debate, knowing that it had blown up his campaign, what does that tell us?  Joe Biden may have good qualities that inspire great admiration from his many friends, fans, and supporters, and he certainly had a generally successful presidency, but he also, right up until the end (and we haven't seen the end yet) has put the country through a major trauma and risk by his characteristic self-serving hubris in seeking a second term so late in life.  And probably reliable reports have it that he is filled with anger and resentment towards those who worked to persuade him to stand aside to have a better chance of preventing a catastrophic second Trump presidency.  It's hard for me to consider him a great patriot, a hero, or a saint when he finally capitulated to reality only as most of the world screamed at him that he was becoming a pariah.

    I posted the above on FB and my friend Howard Schoenfeld replied:
I never disagree with you except today. I met Joe at a UJA retreat in the 80’s. He is a warm, genuine, caring,individual that I have admired since then. Has he made mistakes? You bet but haven’t we all. He has endured terrible tragedy. He has rebounded from defeat. But he is the antithesis of the back slapping insincere politician. Sorry for taking exception friend.
and I surreplied:
I always appreciate and value your thoughts, Howard, and rarely disagree with them. I confess to a long term distrust of JB, probably since 1991 and his handling of the Clarence Thomas hearings as Chairman of the Senate Judiciary Committee. Lindsey Graham has said that if you don't admire JB, you've got a problem and perhaps I do, but I've long been leery of his desire to be liked by everybody, including guys like Lindsey Graham and his fellow Republicans who work to defeat programs and legislation important, or even vital, to so many Americans. I also have a real problem with his long record of making stuff up or confabulating. His famous or infamous gaffes are understandable, not the falsehoods. That said, I acknowledge and respect your disagreement. (And I don't claim that JB doesn't have any fine qualities that earn the admiration of many thoughtful good people like you. I'm just a grudge-bearing curmudgeon.)
Geri's niece Missy commented also and surprised me because I thought I was the only leftie with an abiding distrust of Joe Biden:
I’ve never been a Biden fan (going back as far as the Clarence Thomas confirmation hearings)… I will say I’m happy he withdrew as a candidate. It wasn’t a selfless act, far from it. I do think that he needs to retire from public life, and deal with the issues that plague him that can no longer be ignored. Sadly, all the people in his orbit could only see how they benefit from him being President, not what is best for our country- in my opinion .

Can we trust J. D. Vance?  Here's what he said in his acceptance speech in Milwaukee: (1) "We're done catering to Wall Street" whose "barons crashed our economy." (2) "We'll commit to the working man." (3)  "When I was in the fourth grade, a career politician by the name of Joe Biden supported NAFTA, a bad trade deal that sent countless good American manufacturing jobs to Mexico."  (4) "When I was a sophomore in high school, a career politician by the name of Joe Biden gave China a sweetheart trade deal that destroyed even more good middle class jobs." (5) "And when I was a senior in high school, Joe Biden supported the disastrous invasion of Iraq." (6)  "It's about grandparents all across this country, who are living on Social Security and raising grandchildren they didn't expect to raise." (7) "We will protect the wages of American workers—union and non-union alike—and stop the Chinese Communist Party from building THEIR middle class on the backs of our hard-working citizens." (8) "We will send our kids to war only when we must."

Hamlet.  I watched the concluding minutes of Olivier's Hamlet.  It was good that so much of the dialogue was understandable despite the Elizabethan language and diction, but there's no question that I missed much, especially when the actors spoke rapidly (despite the closed captions.)

The Old Man and the Sea.  This afternoon, I watched this 1958 movie with Spencer Tracy.  I have seen it before, many years ago.  What interests me today about the film is not Hemingway's machismo stuff, but the idea that Santiago, the fisherman, was old and the suggestion of the owner of the cantina that perhaps he had gone 84 days without catching a fish not because he was unlucky, but because he was too old.  It reminds me of course of the plight of Joe Biden. 

"His shoulders were still powerful, but very old. . . His head was very old though,  and when his eyes closed there was no life in his face." 

"I went out too far, fish.  No good for you, no good for me, fish. . . You violated your luck when you went out too far. . .   I wish I could see the lights of havana.  I wish for too many things. . .  I am sorry I went out too far.  Ruined us boh, fish. 

He unfurled his sail and started to climb. It was then he knew the depths of his tiredness.

It's easy to see Biden as the Old Man and the marlin as his 2nd term.  He obtained his big wish when he drove away all serious competitors and won all the primary elections and delegates, but he went out too far, seeking to hold on to power until age 86.  He wished for too many things like Icarus getting too close to the sun.  Once his vulnerability was discovered at the June 27 debate, the sharks came at his prize catch, and made it unattainable, until he finally knew the depths of his tiredness during his Covid recovery and quit.

Anniversaries thoughts.  First, Irgun, terrorism, and Israeli political leadership.  Irgun was a terrorist organization dedicated to the creation of the State of Israel as the Jewish State.  It was led for a time by Menachem Begin, who would become prime minister of the State of Israel in 1977 as part of the Likud political party, the party of Benjamin Netanyahu and Ariel Sharon.  Irgun perpetrated two notorious atrocities, the bombing of the King David Hotel on July 22, 1946, and the Deir Yassin massacre that killed at least 107 Palestinian Arab villagers, including women and children, carried out together with Lehi, another Israeli terrorist organization, on 9 April 1948.  What is most notable about Irgun's history is (1) that Israel has justified any number of harsh actions against Palestinians on the basis of 'combatting terrorism,' it has a long history of promoting and/or taking advantage of terrorism itself when it suited its purposes, and (2) Israel has elected terrorists as prime minister, notably Begin and Ariel Sharon.

Second, I have nothing to write about Jeffrey Dahmer except to recall my tangential connections to it.  He worked at the Ambrosia Chocolate factory in downtown Milwaukee.  When the wind was easterly, we would smell the chocolate fragrances in the classrooms at Marquette Law School.  (Stockyard smell from the south, and Red Star yeast smell from the west, depending on the direction of the wind.)  Gerry Boyle, my undergraduate freshman dormitory resident counselor, was Dahmer's lawyer, with help from his daughter and my former student, Bridget Boyle.  Both Gerry and Bridget would later have their law licenses suspended for professional misconduct.  I have occasionally driven past the empty lot on 25th Street where stood the apartment building where Dahmer lived and perpetrated his atrocities.  The lot was owned by Marquette University and was surrounded by a chain link fence.  I wonder if it is still empty or has finally been built upon.


Sunday, July 21, 2024

7/21/24

 Sunday, July 21, 2024

1925 John T. Scopes found guilty of teaching evolution in the “Scopes monkey trial”

1930 US Veterans Administration formed

1940 Soviet Union annexed Estonia, Latvia, Lithuania

1954 Geneva Accords for Indochina divided French colonial territories into the countries of North Vietnam, South Vietnam, Cambodia, and Laos

2024 Joe Biden drops out of presidential race, endorsed Kamala Harris

In bed by 8:45 p.m., up at 3:20 with bad pain in my right hip area and down my right thigh, and in my lower back (arthritis).  I moved to the LZB but was unable to sleep, I moved to the recliner in the TV room where I took 1,000 mg. of Tylenol and checked my glucose at 137 mg/ml and GMI up to 7.5% for the last 7 days, 7.4% for last 14 days.

Prednisone, day 70, 15 + 5 mg,, day 6.  I took 15 mg. of prednisole at 5:20 a.m. with some cottage cheese and blueberries.  

As I sat in the LZB, I thought of Anthony Newley's Stop the World - I Want to Get Off, and of its concluding song, What Kind of Fool Am I, and how it applied to Donald Trump and, to a lesser extent not in its focus on Littlechap's inability to "fall in love," but rather in its focus on his solipsism:    

What kind of fool am I / Who never fell in love

It seems that I'm the only one / That I have been thinking of

What kind of man is this / An empty shell

A lonely cell in which / An empty heart must dwell

What kind of lips are these / That lied with every kiss

That whispered empty words of love / That left me alone like this

Why can't I fall in love /Like any other man

And maybe then I'll know / What kind of fool I am.

Masha Gessen had an op-ed in today's NYTimes titled "Biden and Trump Have Succeeded in Breaking Reality."  She wrote:

[B]oth campaigns are creating a sense of unreality, in presenting politics as formulaic spectacle, abstracted from the actual politics each candidate represents and from people’s lived experiences. . .

No, most American cities are not in fact teeming with murderers and drug-dealing terrorists, but we do live in a world of profound economic anxiety, routine violence and an opioid epidemic. It is not true, as speakers at the Republican convention claimed, that Biden’s policies are to blame for the wars in Ukraine and Gaza, but we do live in a world of unrelenting news of war carnage. Nor is it true that the United States is overrun by millions of dangerous immigrants, but we do live in an era of mass displacement, of what Hannah Arendt described as “homelessness on an unprecedented scale, rootlessness to an unprecedented depth.” She was writing about preconditions for totalitarianism in the 20th century.

The Biden campaign’s approach to these anxieties is to insist that Americans are wrong — that experts’ objective economic data disproves ordinary people’s subjective sense of precarity. Rather than listen to their lived experience, which tells them that they are insecure despite all the job creation and economic growth, or accept what they see and hear, which tells them that the president is too old for the job, Americans should fear only Donald Trump, the Democrats insist — and put their trust in Biden, the only leader who can save us from the autocratic abyss. 

As the week drew to a close, rumors circulated that Biden would soon announce the end of his candidacy. It was a hopeful possibility, not just for the Democrats’ electoral prospects, but also for the end of the gaslighting, the re-establishment of a shared reality. But those rumors have circulated before, and yet here we still are.

As for Trump, despite the gestures he made in his speech on Thursday night toward national reconciliation, tolerance and unity, the convention reflected the ultimate consolidation of his power. If he is elected, a second Trump administration seems likely to bring what the Hungarian sociologist Balint Magyar has termed an “autocratic breakthrough” — structural political change that is impossible to reverse by electoral means. But if we are in an environment in which nothing is believable, in which imagined secrets inspire more trust than the public statements of any authority, then we are already living in an autocratic reality, described by another of Arendt’s famous phrases: “Nothing is true and everything is possible.” (My bolding)

Anniversaries thoughts: (1) The fight over religion in the classroom goes on.  Alabama (?) now wants the Ten Commandments posted in every classroom in the state.  The two big tribes in the U.S. - so-called Christians, including Evangelicals and right-wing Catholics, and the rest of us.

(2)  I'm grateful for and to the VA.  It's Vietnam disability benefits and health care program have made a big difference in our lives.

(3)  After Hitler and Stalin entered into their non-aggression pact in 1939, it was only a matter of time before both engaged in aggression against its weaker neighbors.  If NATO fails post-Ukraine, it's a matter of time before Putin retakes control over the Baltic states, one way or another.

(4) I was a month shy of my 13th birthday when the Geneva Accords were signed.   Eleven years later, about a month shy of my 24th birthday, I would land on the airstrip at Chu Lai on my way to Danang.

(5) Finally, Joe Biden accepts reality.



Saturday, July 20, 2024

7/20/24

 Saturday, July 20, 2024

1961 "Stop The World - I Want To Get Off" premiered

1969 Apollo 11 lunar module carrying Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin lands on the surface of the Moon.

1988 Michael Dukakis selected as the Democratic nominee

In bed at 9, awake at 2:45 with my aching right hip, up by 3, seeing Geri return from letting Lilly out.  Walking from bedroom to TV room was very painful.  I checked my journal and saw that I first reported the pain at about 5 a.m., on July 12th, 8 days ago: " When I stood up, I had considerable pain in my right hip, a new pain making it painful to stand and walk."  It seems much longer but my mind must be playing tricks on me. Chronology: July 9, reduced from 15 mg. to 10 mg.; July 12, pain began;  July 13, back up to 15 mg.; July 14, 3x1,000 mgs. of Tylenol and 5% Lidocaine patches unavailing, visit to ER, 5 mg. of oxycodone unavailing; July 15, great pain trying to stand up straight,15 mg. prednisone; July 16, t/c with Dr. Ryzka, dosage increased to 15 mg. + 5 mg.; July 17, 'considerable hip pain,' 5th day of increased prednisone, 2nd day of 15+5 mg; July 18, the hip pain extends halfway down right thigh, but in the afternoon, I was able to drive to Saukville, renew my driver's license at DMV, and shop at Sendik's without crippling pain in hip; July 19, "considerable hip pain';  today/this morning, aching hip while lying in bed, very painful standing up and walking from bedroom to TV room.

Prednisone, day 69, , 15+5, day 5.   I took my 15 mg. at 4:15 a.m. with breakfast of cottage cheese, raspberries & blackberries.  By 2 p.m., I had less pain and was able both to fix some CBH & eggs for lunch and to fill the bird feeder with seeds.   

I'm so grateful for my wife Geri.  As I am sure I have before, I told her again yesterday that I love her even more now than on our wedding day.  I can imagine some of the thoughts going through her mind as she watches both Lilly and me going downhill.  

I'm grateful too for recognizing the importance of maintaining "an attitude of gratitude" but confess that I am not doing well in that department today.  I'm a bit depressed over my immobility and the hip pain that causes it.  I'm wondering whether the pain is not a recurrence of the PMR but rather something else, tendonitis or a muscle strain, who knows, maybe bone cancer.  In any case, it has me in the dumps, Mickey the Mope.  I need my dear sister to tell me to SNAP OUT OF IT!  I'm feeling down about Trump and Vance, and down about Biden and the Dems.

I'm coming up on the 2nd anniversary of starting this daily journal and I wonder whether I should continue it after I hit that anniversary at the end of the month.  I probably will if for no other reason than what would I do to fill the time every night when I am awake and alone and needing something to fill the long hours until daybreak and Geri's rising?  But it is getting harder to write original thoughts rather than doing a "copy and paste" job from whatever I read in the newspapers or magazines, or from my memoir or an earlier journal entry.  I'm slowing down mentally as well as physically, running out of mental as well as physical energy, and getting less interested in the affairs of the world other than those that distress and depress me.  On the other hand, I have a hunch that writing every day, both the mental and intellectual part of it and the physical activity of typing and formatting, etc., may play a role in slowing cognitive decline and in helping me to recognize it as it occurs.  In any case, it's mostly the chronic pain that has me down.  I've been living with it on and off for a good 15 years, at least since 2009 when I suffered from the Hunner's ulcers in my bladder that recurred last year and required surgery this year.  Then the PMR, now the hip.  I've had two lengthy periods when I desired death every day, 'suicidal ideation' and all that.  I'm not there now, but it gets an old guy down.




Don Quixote and Sancho Panza.
  I read a reference in a piece by Tom Nichols in The Atlantic today to Donald Trump and" his valet, J. D. Vance."  It made me think of Trump and Vance as Don Quixote and his manservant/knight's squire, Sancho Panza.  Quixote like Trump (and Biden!)  was delusional and Panza was sane.  I suspect that both Vance and Kamala Harris are sane enough to know that their Quixotes are badly impaired but they both play their subservient role, hoping for better days ahead in their own lives.


Anniversary thoughts. (1) Maybe my favorite musical, the life of Littlechap and Evie.  I Want to be Rich, Gonna Build a Mountain, Once in a Lifetime, What Kind of Fool Am I, and my poltical favorite, Mumbo Jumbo:

Vote for Littlechap! Vote for Littlechap!
Vote for Littlechap! Vote for Littlechap!
For Littlechap!

Girl: Fellow citizens, our speaker for tonight is the Opportunist candidate for this constituency, Mr. Littlechap.

Littlechap sings:

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Tickety bubarb yak yak yak
Mumbo jum red white and bluebarb,
Poor Brittania's on her back.

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Nothing newbarb cha cha cha.
Mumbo Jumbo Castro's Cubarb.
I think someone's gone too far!

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Voulez-vousbarb avec moi?
Mumbo Jumbo entrez-nousbarb
Bridget Bardot ooh la la!

Girl: Ladies of the Book of the Month Guild, it is my pleasure to introduce the Opportunist candidate for this constituency, Mr. Littlechap!

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Has Red China got the bomb?
Velly soon now if it's truebarb
We'll be blown to kingdom come.

Chorus: You've got a bomb, We've got a bomb, All God's children got bombs.

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Give the Democrats more cash.
Helps the nation, stops inflation.
How's your father? Wall Street crash.

Chorus: We wanna be rich with money to burn.

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Prostitubarb off the streets.
We will fight them on the beaches
But we'll lose between the sheets.

Girl: Fellow members of the Motor Scooter Association, I'd like you to meet the Opportunist candidate, Mr. Littlechap.

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Common Market can't go wrong.
Washday Mondays? Send your undies
Chinese laundry in Hong Kong.

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Give the Africans their rights.
Colored people are free toobarb
Though not quite as free as whites!

Mumbo Jumbo, rhubarb rhubarb
Up your flubarb, Liberty Hall.
And, dear friends, if I'm elected,
I'm all right, Jack--screw you all!
. . . . . . . 
And the theme song for Donald Trump and J. D. Vance, I Want to be Rich:

Look at me--just take a look at me--
A minute ago, I didn't know
Me elbow from me...
Ask just simply anyone--go and ask anyone--
They'll tell you I was greener than the grass.

Ooh, what I mess I was!
Yes, I'll confess I was!
Like a burbling bloody baby at the font!
You don't know the half of it--
But now I just laugh at it!
'Cause now I know exactly what I want.

I wanna be rich, have money to burn.
A thousand a week, say, would do me a turn.
I'd keep it in oncers in case of a slump.
I'd have stacks and stacks and the Income Tax
Could take a running jump.

I've have all me suits made a dozen a time.
I'd buy all the best shares, provided they climb
Give me half a chance, a small advance,
Me fingers itch to make me dirty rotten filthy stinking rich!

Take a look at me--a quick butcher's hook at me--
Now, a minute ago I didn't know a cockle from a whelk.
Can you imagine it? I mean, just imagine it!
Fancy not knowing a cockle from a whelk!

Oh, what a nitt I was! Yes, I'll admit I was!
Like a sloppy, floppy puppy with a ball.
And then, without reason or rhyme--
I was chatting this bird at the time--
I heard a sort of voice within me call.

I wanna be rich and have a big house,
With hundreds of acres and pheasants and grouse.
An American car as long as the street;
And the local birds'll be lost for words--
It'll knock them off their feet.
(Women drivers!)

I wanna be famous and be in the news,
Go out with a film star whenever I choose.
Gimme half a chance to lead a dance
With some rich bitch
And I'll be dirty rotten filthy stinking rich!

I wanna be rich and mix with the nobs
And sit in the best seats with all of the snobs.
I may go to Ascot to take in the scene.
In me grey top hat and me spats and that,
I'd be comp'ny for the Queen.




Friday, July 19, 2024

7/19/24

 Friday, July 19, 2024

1692 5 more people are hanged for witchcraft (19 in all) in Salem, Massachusetts

1848 First US women's rights convention held in Seneca Falls, NY, organized by Elizabeth Cady Stanton and Lucretia Mott

1984 Geraldine Ferraro became the 1st US female major-party vice-presidential nominee, officially joining Walter Mondale's Democratic Party ticket

Lights out at 10:30, Trump still bloviating, up for a PS at 1:15 & let Lilly out, but she stood on the sidewalk for a few minutes, turned around and came back in, Awake and up by 4:30 with some pain in my right hip and sharp, stabbing gout-like pain in the joint of my left big toe.    

Prednisone, day 68, 15 + 5, day 4.  I took my 15 mg. at 5 a.m., followed by some cottage cheese.  I had considerable hip pain, making me wonder again whether the pain is caused by something other than PMR.    

Lilly's visit to her vet was difficult.  The good news was that we were finally successful in getting her up the doggie ramp and into the Audi.  The bad news was that the visit focused on her old age, senility, and a discussion of when it will be time to euthanize her.  As the vet discussed the process of major organ failure and its symptoms, I wondered whether he was talking about Lilly or about me.  

Anniversaries thoughts.  Looking at today's anniversaries, I am reminded of the rap song "It's Hard Out Here for a Pimp," except substituting "a woman" for "a pimp."  The Salem witch trials in the 17th century were grounded in a misogynistic fear of women that seems to be an inherent characteristic of male nature, as reflected perhaps in the myth of Eve tempting Adam with the apple.  At the time of the Seneca Falls convention in 1948, women were not only grouped with slaves, criminals, and children in not being privileged to vote in political elections, but they also were generally excluded from most professions and occupations, deprived of control over their own property, and otherwise oppressed.  Life wasn't that bad by 1984 when Geraldine Ferraro was selected as Walter Mondale's running mate against Reagan and H. W. Bush, but she paid a heavy price for being the first woman on a national election ticket.  Her personal history -  in coming from poverty, being raised by her widowed mother (a seamstress in the garment district of NYC), becoming a teacher, then a lawyer and prosecutor, a member of Congress, and a major party nominee for vice president - was largely ignored as opponents and the media dug into her husband's real estate business and tax records to smear and defeat her.  She and Mondale lost in a landslide for Reagan-Bush.  The next woman on a national ticket was Sarah Palin, who was not nearly as personally impressive as Jerry Ferraro but was also paid a heavy price for her historic candidacy with John McCain.  Next came Hilary Clinton, defeated not only by the worthy Barack Obama but also by Donald Trump, after Republican James Comey gratuitously smeared her right before election day in 2016.  Now we have Kamala Harris as vice president and perhaps soon-to-be presidential candidate.  What price will she pay?

There is an essay by  Cassie Chambers Armstrong, "J. D. Vance Is No Good for Appalachian Women: He has no business speaking for us."  Her focus is on the plight of rural women, mostly but not only in Appalachia, and the tremendous hardships they encounter not only in obtaining divorces from abusive husbands but also in terminating a pregnancy that may have been forced on them.  J. D. Vance has taken positions opposing abortions even in the case of rape or incest, though he now waffles on this issue.  She writes:

Vance has said that nowadays, people “shift spouses like they change their underwear” and implied that they should remain in a marriage even if it is abusive. The idea that leaving a bad marriage that is “maybe even violent” would make you happier, he said, was “one of the great tricks that I think the sexual revolution pulled on the American populace.”

Talk about arrogance!  A privileged, rich, venture capitalist White man opining that poor women in abusive marriages should eschew divorce for the sake of the children in the abusive marriage.  I recall my conversations with my sister about how each of us wished my mother would divorce my father when he was so emotionally distant and abusive to all of us.  We were at best disappointed and at worst angry with her for keeping us all together.  And what is Vance thinking of in knocking down the strawman of women becoming "happier" after divorcing their abusive husbands?  It's hardly a question of happy vs. unhappy, or happier vs. less happy.  The woman's lot is often, perhaps usually, unhappy in either event.  It's not a choice between good and bad,  happy and unhappy, but between bad and worse, or perhaps between life and death.  What a presumptuous, arrogant jerk.

Mrs. Charles Bliss from Spoon River Anthology

Reverend Wiley advised me not to divorce him
For the sake of the children,
And Judge Somers advised him the same.
So we stuck to the end of the path.
But two of the children thought he was right,
And two of the children thought I was right.
And the two who sided with him blamed me,
And the two who sided with me blamed him,
And they grieved for the one they sided with.
And all were torn with the guilt of judging,
And tortured in soul because they could not admire
Equally him and me.
Now every gardener knows that plants grown in cellars
Or under stones are twisted and yellow and weak.
And no mother would let her baby suck
Diseased milk from her breast.
Yet preachers and judges advise the raising of souls
Where there is no sunlight, but only twilight,
No warmth, but only dampness and cold —
Preachers and judges!

Larry Anderson called from Georgia to let me know he will be in Milwaukee the week of August 4 so we can plan a get-together.  He is now my oldest friend, with both Ed Felsenthal and Tom St. John gone.  How regretful I am that I have let so many friendships lapse in my life, how big a price I pay now in old age.  Are Cherchian, Vicki Conte, and even Larry Stack.  How I regret not getting the name and phone number of that wheelchair-bound vet I chatted with in the waiting room of the Rheumatology Clinic weeks ago.  What a fool I am.

Trump's acceptance speech last night was a doozy, 92 minutes.  First a dramatic recounting of his assassination attempt, including "I knew God was with me," followed by more than an hour of happy horseshit, bullshit, and pie-in-the-sky promises.  Geri and I both gave up and went to bed around halfway through, unable to stomach any more.  Nothing he said was particularly surprising.  I was mostly moved by watching the televised images of the crowd, chanting, crying, clapping, cheering, mesmerized by their Great Leader, now marked by and saved by the Almighty.   I marveled that so many thousands of ordinary-looking human beings, people who looked like my neighbors, the people I encounter at the food store or a DMV office, can be so taken by this charlatan, this adjudicated rapist, fraudster, con man, and felon.  What kind of world are we really living in?  Is this all a terrible dream?

Trump's idea of a "unity" speech:

What this administration has damaged, what this administration has done, and I say it often, if you take the ten worst presidents in the history of the United States, . . ., added them up, they will not have done the damage that Biden has done. . . The damage that he has done to this country is unthinkable, unthinkable . . .

Shack Dye from Spoon River Anthology

The white men played all sorts of jokes on me.
They took big fish off my hook
And put little ones on, while I was away
Getting a stringer, and made me believe
I hadn’t seen aright the fish I had caught.
When Burr Robbins, circus came to town
They got the ring master to let a tame leopard
Into the ring, and made me believe
I was whipping a wild beast like Samson
When I, for an offer of fifty dollars,
Dragged him out to his cage.
One time I entered my blacksmith shop
And shook as I saw some horse-shoes crawling
Across the floor, as if alive—
Walter Simmons had put a magnet
Under the barrel of water.
Yet everyone of you, you white men,
Was fooled about fish and about leopards too,
And you didn’t know any more than the horse-shoes did
What moved you about Spoon River.

The CrowdStrike/Microsoft Canary in our Coalmine.  I've avoided thinking much about this matter because it makes so clear what I have been aware of so long: our abysmal vulnerability to computer computerized technology, the internet, and cyberspace.  What would happen if Vladimir Putin or Xi Jinping exploded an electromagnetic pulse weapon over the US or if one company used by most of the Fortune 500 companies to protect against hackers uploaded a fix to a Microsoft problem and their customers' computer systems all malfunctioned?  Now we know, or at least have a forewarning.