0915

September 15, 2022

In bed at 10:30, up at 6, 3 or 4 pss, 1 and 1/2 glasses of red.  Woke up from a sad dream of resigning from the old firm only to find out I was being fired by the firm, new management, getting out 'old wood,' empty out desk,' hand over keys and parking pass, 'perp walk' to door.  Reminiscent of how the executive director of  WEAIT was fired years ago by his board of directors, when I was tasked with supervising his cleaning out of the desk, walking to the door, etc.  Dream based on how non-entrepreneurial I was as a lawyer, hating to charge large fees, realizing that in my work at my firm, my own family and old friends couldn't afford to hire me. Never cut out for building a private practice of wealthy people.  Never cut out for 'fee for service, hourly billing' either.  Inherently conflictual.

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I haven't tested my blood glucose since August 7th.  Went back to the bedroom to do a finger-stick but found Lilly lying down between my bed and the desk where I do the sticking.  Decided not to disturb her.  Part of her behavioral changes in her old age is spending more time in my bedroom and spending more time staring at me in the TV room, following me, and waiting during pit stops.  

    Blood sugar at 9 a.m., fasting, 142.

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Geri left the house at 7 for a 7:45 appointment with her ophthalmologist about cataract removal.  Called at 7:40, GPS malfunctioned, heading east on College Avenue, instead of toward Greenfield destination.  Pulled up Google Maps to help.  Called the Greenfield office who said they give patients a 15-minute leeway on appointments.  Doesn't sound good, keeping my fingers crossed.

    Geri got home at 10:45 and reported that she arrived at her destination around 8:20 for the 7:45 appointment.  Said my directions weren't good.  A very disappointing start to her day, upsetting.

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White House has announced 'tentative settlement' of freight rail labor dispute, avoidance of strike.  Oliver Wendell Holmes, Jr. stated in 1896 the truth of capitalism: "One of the eternal conflicts out of which life is made up is that between the effort of every man to get the most he can for his services, and that of society, disguised under the name of capital, to get his services for the least possible return."  Vegelahn v. Guntner, 167 Mass. 92, 44 N.E. 1077, 1081.

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Today's papers reveal a right-wing coalition has defeated the center-left government in Sweden.  Yesterday's paper revealed that Italy's next leader may be ultra-rightist Georgia Meloni.   Sweden, Italy, Poland, and Hungary.  Democracy, mene mene tekel upharsin.  Immigration, immigration, immigration: Syrians, Afghans, Iraqis, Somalis, et al.  Muslims and "Non-Nordics", memories of 'non-Aryans.'

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"We are all tattooed in our cradles with the beliefs of our tribe; the record may seem superficial, but it is indelible." Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr., The Poet at the Breakfast Table.

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I watched another YouTube lecture on Mark Rothko this morning, "Exploring Mark Rothko with Annie Cohen-Solal, in conversation with Peter Selz."  Very interesting.  In Q&A at the end of the program, Peter Selz noted that Rothko had been very depressed and sick before his 1970 suicide (slit both wrists), couldn't paint from the effects of medications, bad arthritis, and failing eyesight.

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Took Andy's Lexus to Andrew Toyota to get the power steering fixed.  Hoping it will be done tomorrow and we'll get the Volvo back.

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I finished reading Eva Hoffman's Shtetl, wondering why Caela thought she detected some elements of excuse-making or whitewash in it.  Watched an hour interview with her on YouTube.