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September 24, 2022 

In bed at 11, up at 6:30, 2 (3?) glasses of red. 52 degrees and cloudy, dark morning.  

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I asked Geri to cut my hair yesterday and she was kind enough to agree.  The hair was way too long, which I wouldn't mind if it weren't so thin and wispy, falling, blowing all over my head and face.  The haircut reminded again, though I need no reminder, of how much Geri takes care of me, and Lilly, and our home, how truly dependent I am on her, we are on her.  Without her I would be utterly unable to live in this house, or any house, on my own.  Can't get down on the floor cuz I can't get up, can't climb a ladder huzza balance, dizziness, dealing with steps a problem, especially descending, even one step.  Candidate for Bosky Dells, me and Maude Frickert😱 but so much to be thankful for, especially my wife, my O&O.

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Drove Geri to Kohl's department store at Bayshore where she picked up some electric  clippers to work some more on my hair, bless her heart.  

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Michael Reck posted a lovely remembrance of his mom this morning:

"Avatar is back in theaters and I actually want to see it again. It is a great movie, but that isn't why I want to go. As a kid movies were my escape and my Mom and Dad took me to see a lot of great movies, Star Wars(like 26 times) E.T., Superman the Movie, Jaws, Raiders of the Lost Ark, and so many more. 

As I got older I started going to the movies with my friends, dates, and girlfriends. I didn't go with my Mom or Dad as often and when did go with them it was still something special. It was nostalgic, even if the movies weren't as great.

Back when Avatar was released, I was staying with my Mom and Dad while I was recovering from my second major spinal surgery. I couldn't be at home because of some crazy circumstances and I wasn't really able to do much, I had a walker I needed to get around, I felt abandoned due to things going on with my marriage at the time, and honestly I was very depressed. My Mom's health also began to decline, she started to need oxygen more and more at the time. So things weren't great. 

We were watching the morning news and they talked about the movie and my Mom looked at me and said let's go see that. The next day we went. My Mom and I both totally loved the movie. But the best part was feeling like a kid again. Watching a movie with my Mom that was a magical film and was so awe inspiring, like the movies we saw when I was young. It was a special moment and the last time I saw a movie with my Mom in a theater. So I want to see it and just remember that moment with Mom. 

Miss you and love you Kitty Reck!!!"

I commented: "Mike, thanks so much so sharing those memories of time with your wonderful incomparable loving Mom. You warm my heart and I note, as always, you are a gifted writer.❤❤"

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More Godard monologue,  2 or 3 Things I Know About Her:

". . . since social relations are always ambiguous since my thoughts divide as much as unite, and my words unite by what they express and isolate by what they omit since a wide gulf separates my subjective certainty of myself from the objective truth others have of me, since I constantly end up guilty, even though I feel innocent, since every event changes my daily life, since I always fail to communicate, to understand, to love and be loved, and every failure deepens my solitude, since . . . I cannot escape the objectivity crushing me nor the subjectivity expelling me since I cannot rise to a state of being nor collapse into nothingness, I have to listen, more than ever I have to look around me at the world, my fellow creature, my brother."

Closing lines of the film:  "I listen to commercials on my transistor.  Thanks to ESSO, I serenely take the road to dreams and forget all else.  I forget Hiroshima and Auschwitz.  I forget Budapest.  I forget Vietnam and minimum wages.  I forget the housing crisis.  I forget the famine in India.  I've forgotten it all, except that since it takes me back to zero, I have to start over from there. (Visual: attractive young man and woman embracing behind a foreground of "Hollywood chewing gum.  The withdrawing camera shot shows an assortment of commercially available cleaning products and other consumer goods.)

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Worked on "Woman at the Balustrade" this afternoon.  Still iffy.  Almost got in big trouble with a burnt sienna glaze on her face.