1/27/23

 Friday, January 27, 2023

In bed before midnight, awake at 5:45 or so, up at 6 wanting more sleep but not in the cards, thoughts of the funeral, shiva.  Thinking I was somewhat rested but fooling myself, still exhausted. 17 degrees outside, wind blowing from SSW at 17, 8 to 21 mph during the day with gusts to 38 mph. Light snow is expected today.  A real January day with a wind chill at 2 degrees now, 0 to 22 degrees today.  Sunrise at 7:12, sunset at 4:57, 9+44.  A day to collapse, try to sleep, R&R, Rest & Recover.

Messages  Former next-door neighbor Howard Schoenfeld messaged me a very kind note: "We watched the service on live stream as we were unable to get to Milwaukee.  Thank you for your moving words.  I am still in shock.  He has left such a void."  Linda Stieber, first a receptionist at our law firm and then a legal secretary also sent a very kind note: "Dearest Chuck, this is Linda. I am so sorry that I could not be there in person to offer you, David, and of course Caela and the family my condolences. I watched your incredibly meaningful funny and lovely eulogy via the online service. You honored Tom so very well. Love, peace and many hugs to you, always. I can't find the last email address I had for you.... please feel free to free to message it here or to lastieber@yahoo.com. Take care, dear man, and greetings to Geri as well. 💗  I wrote back to each of them.  "Thank you, Howard.  Your words mean a lot to me.  I’ve been a bit of a wreck for the whole past week and wondered if I was up to delivering the eulogy.  I’m hoping to sleep for a week now that we have all moved through Tom’s death, the long wait for his body to be released by the VI authorities, meetings with Rabbi Cohen, etc., etc.   It was very kind of you to send me your message.  I send Paula a big hug." and "Oh, wow Linda, you touch my heart with your message.  How very, very kind of you.  I have such warm memories of you at the firm when we were both there and at your wonderful recital and the party at Bob Friebert's house afterward.  Thank you so much for taking the time to send me this message.  It means more to me than you can imagine."

To sleep, perchance not to dream . . .  I dozed off at some time on my recliner, and woke up at about 1:30, my body more rested but emotionally numb.  The house is so quiet, Geri napping in bed,with Lilly.  Put on my heavy bathrobe, filled the scooper funnel with sunflower seeds and finally filled the tube feeder that was emptied yesterday. The tall niger feeder is still half full, the suet cake also plentiful.

Contact mit die Kinder  I sent a short email to Sarah, caught up a little, shared Tom's eulogy; sent a short text message to Andy re how pleased I was that he attended Tom's funeral and the food gathering, how proud of him I am.

Pain around right kidney lately hoping it's not a UTI, worse yet a stone.😱

9 P.M. and a first  I never got out of my nightshirt today.  I want to think about and write about Tyre Nichols but not now.